Josh, Tommy and I spent the morning together.   Tommy and I sang happy birthday to Josh.   His grandma and my hubby called to wish him a happy birthday before he left for my ex’s house.   Each of these passing years are more bittersweet for me.  I look at my little boy who is nearly a man.  Only two more years and he will graduate from high school and begin his adult life.  I was only a year older than he is today when I gave birth to him.  I remember all the mixed feeling everyone had about my pregnancy, but what an incredible child he is.   He has the kindest heart and is so intelligent.  He is a good boy, he tells me he loves me daily and still hugs his mom goodnight.   He is my joy……..we grew up together in a way…..and I love him dearly.